I was thinking yesterday about how I spent the month of March (2010) on my knees asking God to allow our baby to live, for our child to have life. What really hit me about this is that our daughter was conceived in November (2009)! So all that time that I was asking Him, God had a plan for our beautiful daughter ALREADY in the works! It wasn't the plan I had in mind or the even the plan I was asking for, but it was God's perfect will and His work in our life and we are beyond thankful for it. She is the light of our lives!
Isn't it amazing to realize that while we are desperately praying, hoping, sulking, pouting, feeling sorry for ourselves, doubting, wishing, wanting, longing for a BIG need.... GOD has already put in motion a BIGGER RESPONSE?
And that, quite simply, is why we need faith. I trust in His plan and ask Him to give me the faith and strength to wait on it.
And the very cool thing about this path that we are on? Only God knows the hour and day when our 2nd baby will be conceived. We aren't pursuing adoption or fertility treatments again right now, as we are relishing every day with our precious one, but who knows what plan will be revealed in the future!! :-)
It is so amazing. Jackson was conceived a month before we lost our second baby. It's weird to think that as I was grieving, my precious child was growing and would be in my arms in 8 months or so. Keep enjoying your miracle:).
ReplyDeleteThis is so true! When we counted back 9 months from Eden's actual birthdate (she was 3 wks early), it brought us to the weekend we attended our first adoption seminar. We got goosebumps! She was really meant for us. Someone up above already had a plan for us and we didn't even know it. Crazy how things all end up falling into place.
ReplyDeleteWe are coming up on one year since we started our adoption process. Look where we are! We are about to finalize! We are blessed!
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